Finally. A published pattern. FINALLY.

I’ve been sitting on this pattern for a year and a half. That’s right. You aren’t seeing things. I did say A YEAR AND A HALF. Designers are known to come up with a bevy of ideas and sit on some of them, but it’s not so usual to be near the finish line and drop a project (or in my case, all designing) so suddenly. I ceased putting out new designs when I began taking on clients (other designers) for their own graphics needs. But I was finding myself spending less and less time with crochet. And truth be told, I rarely picked up a hook during my self-imposed internment.

It’s not that I didn’t want to. I did. It’s just…there were (and have been) so many other things on my plate that something had to give. The Day Job got stressful. More of the Side Work (aka. “graphics work”) was coming in. At one point, I wasn’t sure if the wedding was going to happen. And then my step-father passed away. And then there was a wedding scheduled along with all the details that were quite time consuming. I just didn’t have room for a hook in there, physically but more so mentally.

Does anyone else feel like that? Like you can’t have a fresh perspective on new designs if so many other things are crowding your brain? That’s how I felt anyway. I tend to put everyone and everything else first and me last. That’s what I was doing. In a way, I was devaluing my own self.

I have to reference something Kim Werker said a few months ago about ‘being afraid to be awesome’ (loosely paraphrased). It’s a self-imposed roadblock that I’ve chosen to dig myself out of. Starting today.

So now that some of those things have been resolved, I’ve chosen to get back on my metaphysical “horse” and pump out some new designs, do something for mefor a change.

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